I just finished listening to My Story by Elizabeth Smart. While her whole kidnapping is a terrifying thing to imagine what really hit me was the end.
She is with her family again. One of her brothers apologizes that the last interaction they had before she was taken was him teasing her for something. He promises her no matter what from then on before they said goodbye he would always tell her he loved her.
In that moment it really hit me how much I truly want Olivia to have that special sibling bond.
I've been thinking a lot about when the time comes that we would want another and it terrifies me. There are times I just can't imagine how I would be able to do it. Especially having hyperemesis gravidarum (puking up absolutely anything that enters my stomach until around 20 weeks pregnant, becoming so dehydrated I have to go to the hospital and losing 12 pounds in the process) and having to still care for Olivia. It's scary and thinking about it gives me anxiety (even though it's a few years away).
But after hearing what Elizabeth Smart's brother said to her, I can't imagine robbing Olivia of the opportunity to have that relationship. I'm excited for a few years from now when that relationship can become a reality for her.
P. S. Don't worry, I am most definitely not pregnant nor do we plan on getting pregnant any time soon. These are just things I think about, you know the future.
