I love to cook

Confession time. The first year and half after John and I got married I prepared significantly less meals than John did. Part of this was because I worked late and had I been the one to cook we would have been eating late. Another reason was that John loves to cook. The bigger reason was that more often than I would like to admit when I would make dinner it would end with me in tears feeling extremely inadequate in the chef department. Did John always eat the food I made? Yes. I don't remember a single time he deemed dinner inedible. Did he tell me I was the worst cook ever? Never. Not once. Though he did encourage me saying with time I would get better. Did I believe him? Nope. Was it true? Absolutely!

Today, most of the meals I make turn out well. I most definitely still have meals turn out pretty awful and maybe it is because we have been married for almost 5 years and we tend to be a little more blunt with one another, or perhaps my confidence in my cooking abilities is far greater than it was back then so he knows I won't burst into tears (unless I have low blood sugar), but John definitely lets me know when dinner is unappetizing. 

I now absolutely love cooking. Now that doesn't mean that I find joy in every meal I make or don't go through times when cooking feels like nothing but a chore. It does mean that I happily choose to prepare a meal that takes all day to make. It means I almost exclusively make my meals from scratch, even more so now with all of Evelyn's allergies (thank you corn and your derivatives being in EVERYTHING).  

It means I am always looking for new meals to try and often rediscover old favorites that have been long forgotten. 

I sometimes feel like I don't have hobbies. That everything that I do is part of the mom job. The truth is, the "mom job" has helped me discover who I am, what I love, and many of my future goals. Cooking is one of those things that because of Olivia's dairy allergy and all of Evelyn's allergies I have been pushed to be more creative and I am so grateful for that!